Edward sat in Charlie's usual seat in the kitchen, as Bella went through her applications for college. " Have you picked out any other favorite colleges you would want to attend?" Edward said to Bella as he absentmindedly twisted a strand of her hair around his finger. " Or do you still want to go to Alaska?" Edward leaned forward to put the piece of hair he was playing with back into place. He leaned back into his chair and sighed as he waited for Bella's response.

Bella frowned. "What makes you think I'd change my mind? I want to go to Alaska. "Bella tossed the rest of the applications for the other colleges at Edward. "I don't think I'll need those. I mean, I'm pretty bright so, I think I'll get accepted in Alaska," Bella said confidently.

Bella stared at the application in front of her as she thought about her being changed. She hadn't admitted it to Edward yet, but she was afraid. She knew that if she told him, he'd absolutely refuse to let her be changed. What if it was too much for her and she lost her memory like Alice did?

"S-so...how soon will I be changed?" she asked, trying to keep her voice from shaking.

Bella bit her lip and looked down. Edward didn't want to admitt her weakness to him. She knew that it would hurt him to know that she had been keeping this from him and she didn't want that. It hurt her worse to lie to him, but it was too hard for her to come out and be honest with him. Bella cleared her throat.

"S-so how much does it hurt?" she asked, trying to sound normal, but her voice squeaked.

Damn! Now he's going to think I'm afraid! Nice going, Bella! she scolded herself.

She groaned and closed her eyes. "Forget that I asked that please. I'm just...I don't know. So, how's Esme?"

(Yeah, old dates look bad. )

Jake be quiet! Jk, lol.

Nope.

Why not?